Make Up Your Mind Damnit....

...Before I let it get to far....

I have yet to break up with "the boy". Oh the life of a pathetic naive little girl is entrapping. An endless hallway of back doors and hiding places. The excuses around every corner provide the perfect alibi. Now don't get me wrong, I have tried. I called him when I returned from camping only to find that he was at the movies with his friends. What type of person would I be if I delivered the bad news while he was out in public, around his closest friends. He would probably have been slightly humiliated. I would not be very happy with my self if that was how I did it. And now every time I think about doing it again I think about my friend (a guy friend) who had been recently broken up with. It was not fun watching him upset over it. And he's a strong guy. 10 bucks says that what I, and the rest of the group, saw of him was only half of it. We never got to see what was going on in his head. So all I can think about is how I am probably sentencing my guy to go through that. Thus I chicken out, make up excuses, and distract myself with other things in an attempt to avoid that needs to be done.

Damn me.