ok. Old boy is gone! And it was so easy!! He saw it coming. Haha!
Anyway, on a more sane path meet new boy. The friend! (Time between guys completely coincidental! I swear it) And not just any friend, the guy i mentioned earlier. He's so awesome. I feel so comfortable around him. I can be myself and I don't have to worry that he'll think I'm mentally handicapped! Yay me!!
I
Am
Happy! lol
In lighter news, I am (as far as i know) still participating in Animethon's Artist Alley! Should be Tons O' Fun! But as exciting as that may seem if Math keeps going the way it is I might just shoot something. I will burn these notes!! In case you haven't noticed I really hate math. And it hates me. Did you know that it has learned this new ability where every class it eats a little but more of my soul? Yeah. It sucks. At least my mark is good.
That's all folks! Tune in next time where I will actually start posting half-intelligent rants before all this boring junk.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Make Up Your Mind Damnit....
...Before I let it get to far....
I have yet to break up with "the boy". Oh the life of a pathetic naive little girl is entrapping. An endless hallway of back doors and hiding places. The excuses around every corner provide the perfect alibi. Now don't get me wrong, I have tried. I called him when I returned from camping only to find that he was at the movies with his friends. What type of person would I be if I delivered the bad news while he was out in public, around his closest friends. He would probably have been slightly humiliated. I would not be very happy with my self if that was how I did it. And now every time I think about doing it again I think about my friend (a guy friend) who had been recently broken up with. It was not fun watching him upset over it. And he's a strong guy. 10 bucks says that what I, and the rest of the group, saw of him was only half of it. We never got to see what was going on in his head. So all I can think about is how I am probably sentencing my guy to go through that. Thus I chicken out, make up excuses, and distract myself with other things in an attempt to avoid that needs to be done.
Damn me.
I have yet to break up with "the boy". Oh the life of a pathetic naive little girl is entrapping. An endless hallway of back doors and hiding places. The excuses around every corner provide the perfect alibi. Now don't get me wrong, I have tried. I called him when I returned from camping only to find that he was at the movies with his friends. What type of person would I be if I delivered the bad news while he was out in public, around his closest friends. He would probably have been slightly humiliated. I would not be very happy with my self if that was how I did it. And now every time I think about doing it again I think about my friend (a guy friend) who had been recently broken up with. It was not fun watching him upset over it. And he's a strong guy. 10 bucks says that what I, and the rest of the group, saw of him was only half of it. We never got to see what was going on in his head. So all I can think about is how I am probably sentencing my guy to go through that. Thus I chicken out, make up excuses, and distract myself with other things in an attempt to avoid that needs to be done.
Damn me.
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